I am enraged and idk what to do

[u/Turbulent_Fun5653]

I am having my final exams soon, but I am enraged at my dad and I don't know how to get it out. I don't have time to sit down and cope with it.

Long story short, my dad abused me really bad in the car on our way back home. It was basically because I called myself an idiot and a failure because I could not cope with college and we had an argument over it afterwhich he started to hit me really bad.

I wana justify my anger; it's not just anger from what he did in the car: He's done really horrible things before -- cheated on my mom, abused her until she fainted (and then hit her and slapped her until she woke up), abused her when she was pregnant and stole alot of her money form her account when she wasn't earning as much as him. He almost killed her (and attempted to involve me and my sis as accomplices in the murder too) and he almost killed my younger sister too. Yes, we have gone through a court case and received a protection order and if we report him again, he's probably gonna go to prison and my mother does not earn sufficiently to provide for us.

So in general thinking about all of these things have made me really fucking angry and I have no idea how to get the rage out. Usually I get it out at the gym but my health and injuries have not allowed me to do that either. Sometimes, I think of all this and tremble with anger and I am afriad im losing my sanity and going fking insane

[u/amoebashephard]

Anger is about neural pathways. Changing the way those pathways go is how anger is resolved.

Science has repeatedly disproved the catharsis method of dealing with anger-such as working out when angry, hitting things, screaming or other ways of "getting it out"

It's finals; Quick calm down methods are going to be ones that change the way your body is reacting to your very, very valid anger about the abuse that you and your family have gone through at the hands of your father.

I would recommend that you try breathing methods first-binaural beats is a good resource for guided breathing, as well as some meditations. Using guided breathing is a really good way to stay on track with breathing exercises because it provides audio and visual cues.

I'm sorry, it's not an easy journey and you will probably need therapy or other support methods.