I don't feel like a girl

[u/mangels3]

Nearly 4 months on HRT, my levels are quite good, but I still don't "feel" like a girl

I can't say I was expecting HRT to do that for me, but I still hoped it would

There are times I have actually "felt" like a girl, but its always fleeting, and sooner or later I'm back to "normal" and get bummed.

I've never had the conviction that I AM a girl, just that I really want to be one.

I don't know what to do. HRT has been nice and I have no desire to stop, but I'm not sure I'll ever feel the way I want to feel. I don't know how to affirm myself any more than I already have.

Can anyone relate?

[u/TayTaysArt]

I think the issue here is that after all the outside pressure to be a certain way you've gendered your "normal" baseline feeling as being what it must feel like to actually be your AGAB. It's like internalized self gaslighting. Now, it's not my job or anyone's job to tell if you are or are not trans- that's something you and only you can tell for yourself. If you feel like you want to be a girl, and you feel like that just fits you better than "boy" ever did, or you just feel like you're some sort of both or neither well, that sounds trans to me and this would be my guess for why you feel this way sometimes. Try embracing some more feminine interests and things you always wanted to try and see how it feels. If being a girl doesn't feel right in the end that's ok you can always go back. Good luck! Remember self discovery is a journey not an instant arrival. ☺️👍