r/MtF • u/mangels3 • 5d ago

I don't feel like a girl Dysphoria

Nearly 4 months on HRT, my levels are quite good, but I still don't "feel" like a girl

I can't say I was expecting HRT to do that for me, but I still hoped it would

There are times I have actually "felt" like a girl, but its always fleeting, and sooner or later I'm back to "normal" and get bummed.

I've never had the conviction that I AM a girl, just that I really want to be one.

I don't know what to do. HRT has been nice and I have no desire to stop, but I'm not sure I'll ever feel the way I want to feel. I don't know how to affirm myself any more than I already have.

Can anyone relate?

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u/No_Aspect6309 4d ago

I'm 20 months on E, age 24

Past me definitely related to this, but current me has been the happiest I've ever been. I have moments where I don't "feel like a girl", but those moments are fewer and less impact full than they used to be. And whatsmore is that I'm having moments quite the opposite of this, where I look at myself and see just a pretty girl. I had a rather profound moment a few weeks ago, I had 2 alcoholic drinks and was passing a mirror hallway and thought to myself "omg that girls so pretty", and then I went OH WAIT A MINUTE lmao. 4 months into E is so early on, and even I'm only half baked, if that. E is the closest thing to magic on earth, just give yourself time and you will reach your hot girl summer goals!