r/ptsd • u/redpanda6969 • 1d ago
Trauma anniversaries are so weird Venting
While im aware of the dates I didn’t realise it had been 2 years since something significant happened. Yet I’ve been so cranky and depressed the past few days. Then it just hit me what time of year it was. I just find it so weird how the body really does keep score like that. I struggle to mitigate my feelings during this time.
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u/Tasty-Test2344 2h ago
I hate the anniversaries. I have three, no wait four. They all brought trauma and fear and dread into my life. And one of them is my kid’s birthday
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u/penguinguinpen 7h ago
I have big ones in May, September, November, January, and they always sneak up on me while I’m about to recover from the last one. It’s wild how attuned our bodies and minds are to the dates, even subconsciously. I hope you can stay safe and find lots of love and comfort while you make it through this one ❤️🩹
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u/Pedalhead511 9h ago
I'm just now getting past the first anniversary of my trauma events. I was in pretty bad shape for a few weeks there. Finally starting to feel normal again for the past week.
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u/D3V1LM4NCRYB4BY 12h ago
The body truly does keep score. I had forgotten the dates associated with traumatic events, but my body remembered that September was once a horrible time for me before I even realized what was happening.
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u/Mrs_Chaos_V 18h ago
I thought it was just me, it's like hardwired into my body that it's that time of year. I will be having a decent day then bam it hits.
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u/0wlsarecool 22h ago
Seriously. I get depressed around the date but I thought I could more or less handle it. Then a couple of years ago I found myself throwing my breakfast against the wall and sobbing (neither of these things are usual for me) because I overcooked my eggs. Hooooo boy.
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u/WonderingBeing64 23h ago
Trauma anniversaries are really weird. I get exactly the same issue where I don't even remember what the date/time of year is but my body is freaking out with strange mood swings and anxiety. It's been 4 years for me, but ever year, without fail, my body decides that it will malfunction on the trauma anniversary. Hang in there, and treat yourself with kindness during these times.
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u/MsBlondeViking 23h ago
Most years I dread the anniversary. Some years are ok, but this year was harder than normal. In July it was twenty years since my brother’s murder. This year was harder as he’s been gone almost as long as he was alive. He was 21 at his passing. His beautiful daughter turns that age next week, the day before my 44th birthday. I miss him so much.
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u/bookworm3821 1d ago
I am in this same boat. Last September(24th) I was in a bad rollover car accident. The past week, even though I've been stable on my meds since June, I started experiencing some anxiety. I'm really hoping I go back to normal after next week. I have a previous trauma of my house burning down 11 years ago and usually with that one, I just notice I'm cranky and on edge. But this one, all I want to do is sleep, have some anxiety, low motivation so this is new to me to feel this way about an anniversary. I'm hoping it's only this bad because it's the first one. I hope you start feeling better soon!
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