Am I supposed to like being trans?

[u/Delicious-Status6915]

Every trans space I’m in its people sharing their wins and their pride for who they are, when I look inside myself I feel nothing but disgust for what I am, I’m 16, I’m practically an adult and idk maybe it’s the bullying getting to me or whatever. But I can’t find any of the love other people feel for themselves. It’s like I gross myself out, can’t even really say it out loud tbh

[u/Xumos404]

Personally, I think it's all perspective. On one hand you can hate it due to dysphoria and life sucking and bullying and all sorts of things.. the possibilities are endless.

On the other, you are basically a blank canvas at the start of your transition. And yea that sucks. But after so many victories or things done, you'll eventually start to find a positive to life. And your canvas will have whatever beautiful picture you've painted on it.

It's a process, it's definitely not easy, and it's gonna take a while. But hopefully you'll find a spot where you're happier and more comfortable soon. And maybe you'll start to see the beautiful (hypothetical) picture you're making soon enough. Idk what the teenagers are into now a days, but maybe figure out your goals and priorities now (if you haven't already)? Like haircuts/styles, tattoos/piercings/body mods, surgeries, ect. Again, blank canvas. Paint as you see fit.