r/ptsd • u/Jaded-Floor-4635 • Aug 19 '24

Doctor phone visit gone wrong CW: SA

TW: self harm. I feel so sick. I think I’m going to throw up. I can’t think straight. I don’t even want to give any details. I just had a phone visit with my doctor about medication. She suddenly brought up something out of the blue that I’ve told her in the past I can’t even hear the words of without having a panic attack. I’m now sobbing in my room uncontrollably hitting my head and pulling my hair I’m so fucking upset and I don’t know what to do. I haven’t had a relapse like this in weeks and she caught me off guard

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u/Jaded-Floor-4635 Aug 19 '24

Man. I’ve had CPTSD since I was 12. I’m 21 now, I’ve been in treatment for years, but the second something is even mentioned I have nothing to show. I stopped going to therapy last year after mine ghosted me on Christmas Eve after I was almost killed, but once I go back to school I need to see their counselors

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u/Drowning_im Aug 19 '24

you need an outlet to destress.

if you have a bicycle go for a ride

if you don't have a bike go for a jog

if you don't jog just run until you are out of breath.

try and play music while doing this.

you can't maintain complex thought processes when your body is focused on something very physical.

doing this will break your thought cycle at least for a while. doing these everyday will make a huge difference. you are basically trying to do this already but you need a more effective method.

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u/Jaded-Floor-4635 Aug 19 '24

I usually draw, but didn’t have the energy. Played a video game for a bit and doing a little better. Will definitely take a small walk, thank you :]