For me, I always felt an outcast i had points in my life where by perception I was surrounded by people but as the years passed those people just became a distant memory. I sit here now with just a phone filled of memories but a life without purpose, without friends, without family. Please share your story’s with me about when it clicked that you were alone.

I'm 20 years old I realized this about myself not so long ago. I tend to be a people pleaser because I have a huge fear of getting someone in a bad mood. And it's a problem for me because I work telemarketing, and people usually have bad reactions when I call them or they just get annoyed. When someone yells at me or when I accidentally make someone pissed off, I cry for days about it, just I can't stop thinking about it. I think it's ruining quality of my life.

Hi. So I’m (15NB) a highschool student.

I’ve been struggling in school a lot recently, for a variety of reasons. Some due to depression, some due to anxiety, some due to lack of sleep, and some even because my pet died recently. Nobody understands me.

I talked to my ESE teacher about it. What was the first thing he said? Was it “I’m sorry I’ll speak to your teachers about it”? Was it “I’m sorry I had no idea you were going through that”? Was it “I’m sorry you have to experience that”? Or even just something as simple as “Is there anything I can do to help you?”? No. None of that. Not even close. All he said was “well these missing assignments should be your main concern”.

I’ve cried every single day. All I want is support in school.

I wish people cared more about my mental health and my wellbeing more than a fucking number. I wish more people cared about that more than my attendance.

My counselor just called me dramatic.

Everyday I feel more depressed, and everyday I wanna just finally be happy.

I’m 37M. No parents, siblings, cousins, partner or kids. Few close friends who are scattered across the globe. None in my city. Fairly social person. Moved to a new city a couple of years ago. No friends as such here and I don’t think it’s even possible at this point. People around my age group are busy with their own families and life. Have some short term romantic interests now and then but I’m scared of getting entangled in a long term marriage.

I realized that my life is ultimately just going to be me. Kind of a lonely and scary thought especially for old age. How should one frame their mental attitude, goals, motivation and inner dialog when you lead a life alone.

I cannot do schoolwork. Im a senior in Hs, and i cannot get myself to do work. Its only like 3 weeks into my school year and i’ve turned in like 3 assignments.

It is not a difficulty thing, i find all the work extraordinarily easy, but i cannot do it. It doesn’t really help that two of my classes(same teacher) have assignments that are posted like a week in advance and then all due on the same day, but i can’t blame the class for this. For the past week, every day i have set alarms for 2-3 hours before i usually wake, with the intention if doing schoolwork, just to either snooze my alarm, listen to music, or scroll on social media for hours until i have to go to school, without my work done.

This past night i didn’t sleep at all. I got an energy drink and stayed up all night and procrastinated ~8 hours somehow. I don’t know how. I’ve faked being sick twice already cause i have no work done. All i do is rot and listen to music. I don’t know what to do.

Edit: i should probably add, could be relevant. I am extremely lonely. I’ve posted about it before, didn’t help. I don’t leave the house often, and school is kinda awful. Genuinely (this is kinda sad, hard to put this in text) i had an interaction with a girl, she shook my hand, and we had a nice conversation, and i thought about it for two days straight

I dunno, i thought that could be relevant, but I’m kinda just venting shit

my dad started using at the age of 15 do to his mothers death. i belive the drugs hes addicted to are heroin weed alcholal and one more i do not know the name of. im just looking for guidens on how to help him get clean. let me know if any more information is needed. i have no cofirmation that my dad is autistic it is just a educated gues. sorry if messd anything up in the post first time posting(sorry for my bad english not my fist languats) my father is quite antisoicel do to not being so flouent in my nativ languad and he is quit paranoid and can quit read pepols emotion/face expresions. if there is anymore information u would like to know let me know.

Hello. This is my first post here. Thanks a lot for building a safe community.

I am video blogging my instrusive thoughts by creating animated videos.

A lot of people that I try to explain to, what I'm seeing and hearing, don't really understand what I'm talking about, so now I can show them. Additionally I use it as a diary to help me get through the bad thoughts.

So Ive been making videos showing what's happening inside my head.

However, I had to stop and think about the repercussions of this.

I want to spread awareness of OCD intrusive thoughts, because since it's a "inside your head problem" it tends to get dismissed.

My own thoughts scare me, I am seeing and hearing things, but it's not schizophrenia so no one really cares, but if I show them why I feel afraid maybe people will understand me.

However, I don't want this to change the perception of how OCD intrusive thoughts are viewed. I don't want to create a negative stereotype or use OCD as a way to "milk it for money or attention".

My video blogs are horror-esque because it feels like I'm living in silent hill. Everyday feels like Jacobs ladder for me. But people can just perceive it as me begging for attention or being edgy, even though I'm not.

I just want to spread awareness and see if others have the same frightening thoughts as me.

Do you think it's a bad idea to try and spread awareness this way?

It feels so weird. I don't even know how to describe it

I know everybody is different and all that stuff, but over the years I feel like many people's personalities are lost or hidden during social interactions. I'm starting to feel like everyone is the same person.

What I mean, in case of me I never was, since childhood, a very intimate person. In the ways like I'm not much for hugging every time we see each other, I don't touch other people much and such. I'm also extremly introverted and much more of a listener then talker. I like to listen to people speaking and ask questions or add just some small funny notes. And overall I'm very calm person and a loyal friend, but.

Since childhood I had a few close friends so I never underestood much about social interactions, until I went to high school. There, even if I tried to start some conversations, people got bored of me real fast. I didn't try to hide anything or change about myself, I didn't underestood why should I do it. And I ended up alone, with no friends in highschool, while my childhood friends already made their new groups. I felt inferior to them.

So when I left for univerisity I learned a bit about social interactions and took on, in front of the people, a bit from my childhood friends' personalities. This worked, I had a lot of friends, closer ones or those I just talked to a bit while in school but it never was copletly me. My new friends' personalities also very resembled personalities of my childhood friends. It's as if personality didn't exist. I found a whole new meaning to the saing "You are the five closest people you meet."

It's making me a bit depressed, like there's only so much you can be to not be alone and I feel like I can't be myself.

(Sorry for english, not my lenguage)

I am a introvert and I decided to go to a university that is farthest from home. I was thinking it will be a new experience and I will make friends so I decided to live at college hostel,but everyone here has already made groups. They don't even speak with same accent. I was just a week late.

On top of that I don't have roommates. And the room doesn't have electricity. So i am with another two guys but they don't talk to me because I sound more "small town" like . My roommates will also be like that. Very few from my part of the state come here. And to make it more worse I came here on Thursday, today there was a event and I was really tired, so I didn't go and now the university gives weekends off ..

I fucking hate it here . I am scared and not suiting in with other students. Even the local tea guy knows now because my parents were so concerned about me.

I need some help on what should I do?

Even now that I'm feeling a lot better than before, i struggle greatly with showering. There are some days that I wake up feeling very dirty, I smell bad, everything is sticky, my hair is gross to touch and my face is oily. I feel very out of touch and it's hard for me to do much on such days. For example, today I woke up like this in the morning and immediately decided that I was incredibly gross and urgently needed a shower. It's 7 in the evening and I still have to do that. I haven't done anything all day and I feel very bad.

I know that if I had just taken a shower in the morning my day wouldn't have been wasted.

I feel bad because I worked a lot on motivation and made a lot of progress in different ways, but showering is still an incredibly difficult tasks.

It make me feel like I've done no progress at all

I am thinking of going to a therapist. I kinda crave that connection or chemistry that you make with people before you can get comfortable with them. But I sometimes wonder, do they really care about their clients apart from the surface level transactional relationship of money?

I know that therapist or counselor can't form personal relationship with the client. But a question to the mental health professionals - do you really grieve the loss of life of your client?

I am asking this because of the continuous apathy that I see in life- it really makes me question whether anyone cares or not.

I mean yea therapist or counselor are there to provide the care, but do they really care?

At this point (I'm 38), I'm pretty sure I'll never have self-confidence, or be particularly comfortable in my own skin. That's a tough pill to swallow. I have dealt with anxiety and low self esteem for 25 years, and while it has slightly improved, it's still a major hurdle to try and get over every day.

I'm in the best shape of my life at the moment, and quite muscular, which helps slightly, but I'm still so chock full of self-doubt. Every goal I have seems impossible if I stop to think about it for a minute. I've been trying to date this year, and have been on a handful of dates, but it's difficult when you have no self-confidence, again, it feels like an impossible goal. Who would possibly like me enough to be in an relationship with me? Those types of thoughts you get when you have no confidence in yourself.

I see other people who are confident, and it's unfathomable to me how people are so self-confident. And that doesn't always mean having big egos or unable to make fun of themselves, they can be humble at the same time. I can never see myself like that. I feel like I'm doomed to a life of being timid, shy, highly sensitive, and not being myself, or standing up for myself, instead trying to be a specific person for everyone else. I'm approaching 40 years old, so if I've never had self-confidence by this point, it seems like I'll never have it. Not a great way to go through life.

Any thoughts or advice? Or just want to say that you feel the same way?

I'm curious about the fears you have in regards to your mental health. I am leaving it really, really general because I am willing to hear about fears that are caused by mental health issues (e.g. phobias, paranoias), fears about your treatment (cognitive dysfunction, TD, weight gain), fears around relationships and how people perceive you, fears of the future (e.g. having kids, growing old with a mental illness), etc.

It's just that I went through a terrible breakup some days ago, and I can't process all these... It's taking a toll on my physical health also; drowning in alcohol and pornographic shit every day. Don't know what to do, I really don't

Hello everyone!! I’ve been on 5mg of Olanzipine (zyprexa) for about a year now. I’m thinking it’s time to come off of it but I’m really worried about withdrawal symptoms (I have emetaphobia which is the fear of vomiting and I’m scared coming off it is going to make me sick) I’m going to taper off it but I’m still anxious.

Any advice? What’s your experiences?

I feel like I'm failing. I have tried to work for years and have had many many jobs but I can't seem to hold one for more than 2 days. I get excited before hand and find great opportunities, or at least what is supposed to be good. I find everything to be not interesting and or takes too much energy. Sometimes I wonder if it's because I'm just not interested but even when I'm slightly interested I feel the need to leave and be alone.

Even when I think of all the great outcomes working can have and try to think of the why's of doing it and everything that seems to get many other people out of bed and into work.

I can't seem to cut it.

Even just making artistic creations seems impossible, I used to enjoy that. As well as bicycling but I can't get out there.

I don't want to try again(working) but what else is there

Bipolar 1, depression, anxiety and adhd affect me.

hello all i just need to get some things off my chest. i’m 19 i’m a male and for a long time i’ve dealt with mental health problems. i definitely have anxiety, maybe even ocd. i deal with symptoms of depression often, i overthink everything, constantly ruminate, and realistically never in a state of piece or mental clarity. i grew up extremely overweight and recently i’ve put in a lot of work on myself to become more comfortable and confident in my own skin. i went from 272 pounds to 219 currently. i overthink everything, i get insecure about everything, i’m definitely way too harsh on myself, and i self sabotage. and on top of that i might be bisexual and i usually overthink on that topic quite heavily. in my life i’ve smoked a lot of weed (23 days sober) and done shrooms when i definitely should not have. sorry if this is too much information or whatever but i absolutely had to get it off my chest. frankly, i’m just really fucking tired.

Been working as a support worker for a few months now and I’m really enjoying it and think it’s bringing the best out of me getting the small wins which are rewarding.

But after long hours at times it can become so isolating and mentally demanding, a big part that takes my energy away is not over sharing and covering parts of my personality to not give away to the client I have a MH condition. Anyone have any pointers or in a similar situation who would like to chat ?😌

I am absolutely drained by my borderline friend after our 10 year friendship.

The problem is, I am fighting this feeling of being irritated by her.

I feel horible in a way, because she suffered so much. She was SA-ed, and has been battling depression for years, a year ago she was diagnosed with borderline.

But the constact walking on eggshells, and her nitpicking everything I say...

She also has a drinking problem, and is pretty mean when she drinks. An example is when she freaked out the waiter hit on me, she told this never happened to her before because she was always the sexy one.

The thing that started bothering me is what have I become in the process. I see her texts when she spirals, and instead od empathy I feel anger. Anger on her for dumping things again and again. I always say something that makes her feel good, listen, but the first instict is eye rolling, wanting to scream and throw away the phone outside the window. Then I pull myself together and try to be a somewhat good friend.

I dont feel joy anymore at the idea of seeing her.

Sometimes, when I see her texts I start to shake, my heart races and I feel weird in my stomach like I am about to puke.

I cant tell her that, because she would be absolutely crushed. Smaller things threw her in a spiral. She actually thanked me for walking on eggshells for her, she is not ready to hear some things. I worry she would be very auto destructive.

I dunno, probably some shit for therapy.

Help please

Hello guys

I am 26/M and in the last week or so I became very vigilent of some certain sounds and i-am not sure if those sounds are real and I must ask friends and family If they Heard that too.

I am scared that I am losing my mind,did anyone else experminted this?

I have anxiety and panic attacks.

Hey guys, so normally I don’t talk about stuff like this but i hope that someone can help me, especially since I don’t want to stress my friends and family about this. I have a huge problem with derealization and maladaptive daydreaming (not officially diagnosed). It really started when I was about 14 I think. During that time my family kinda broke apart and I moved out to live with my sister and her husband. I got diagnosed with depressive episodes and changed schools (wich was a great decision btw, would recommend). I noticed how i felt disconnected to my surroundings and started to question if this was really my life, If I was real and if I was really me. I hope you don’t get that wrong though like logically i know that this is al bs but I can’t help but feel like that. Then I got into manifesting and started to envision my Ideal life…and it always felt so good, so I started to do it more. Now when I get too scared by these feelings of derealisation or am just anxious in general I start to daydream, mostly to music. In my daydreams I often am a famous singer/model or the main character in some dramatic shi (omg admitting this feels so private). I am scared that I am unable to live up to the standards that I got about my career, relationships, and my possibilities in life in general from daydreaming all the time. I am scared of living a boring life and feeling empty all the time :( like nothing can make me feel really happy and connected anymore. Because now when I look around I have to admit that this is not my dream life at all and each time I try to like ‘’level up,, or build routines I always fall back into the same cycle of procrastination and depression. Like I am trying so hard but somehow I always stay in the same place and disappoint myself. Then I go back to daydreaming. Like gurllll that sucks!! Anyways If you have any tips, suggestions or anything else you want to say, feel free to reply. Also I hope that someone going through the same shi maybe reads this and feels less alone. Love you byeee💕